Monday, 21 November 2016

Mask Monday ♡ A'pieu - Rub in Gelato | Pistachio

After a little break from it, Mask Monday is finally back! It's a series I'm actually enjoying doing because it makes me actually use a mask of some sort each week which is only beneficial to my skin and the routine in which I look after it. While I tend to focus on sheet masks as a weekly treat for my skin, I like having something a little different from time to time to give my skin the benefits of something that a sheet mask can't give you. This time we have the A'pieu Rub In Gelato Mask in Pistachio. This mask comes in two different variations, you have the Pistachio one and the Riso (Rice) one.

Sunday, 23 October 2016

Review | Sleek Make Up Face Form in Fair

For the past few months I have been wanting to give contouring a try and see how I can use it to contribute to the make up looks I can do. I was a bit scared of trying it out worrying that I wouldn't be able to do it right and didn't know what products to start with. However, having a nosey in Boots I noticed the Sleek Make Up stand and this little contour palette took my attention. Instead of having to buy a range of different products, this gave me everything I needed to at least get me started! 
Thursday, 22 September 2016

K-Beauty Files II - Jennifer of Barely There Beauty

Hey hey hey! Here we are with the second part of my K-Beauty Files series, a series of interviews with those that fall into the Korean Beauty niche in the blogging world! Today we have Jennifer from Barely There Beauty. Jennifer is actually one of my favourite bloggers and I love her mix of Korean products and Western products she features, particularly the high end ones so I can lust over some things I couldn't afford on the regular! She is genuinely blog photography goals and you can check her instagram out for even more proof of that! Now onto the questions!

Thursday, 1 September 2016

My Birth Story - A Failed Induction & A C-Section

As you will know, I gave birth to my daughter on the 6th of June. Today I wanted to share with you my rather emotionally and physically draining experience of getting her with us safely. This post is going to be a bit on the longer side so go get yourself a cuppa, coffee or even a wee glass of wine to keep you going while reading this. I wanted to share my experience for me to be able to look back on it and for those who may want to read up on other people's experiences of their childbirth to put into perspective some of the things that can happen. 

On the 1st of June I found out I was going to have my labour induced as my baby's growth had tailed off and I had fewer movements than I normally did, so to be on the safe side, I was taken in. We were originally supposed to go in at 9am, but they delayed it for 12 hours to do it overnight. This was the longest day ever for me and it just seemed to drag and drag waiting to be able to finally go up to the hospital and get things started. I had spoken to a few of my friends who had been induced for their babies and most of them had theirs within 24 hours, so I was feeling hopeful that I would find myself in the same position.  

Going to the hospital that night I was nervous, I didn't know what to expect and for me, the anxiety of it finally happening had hit. For the whole of my pregnancy I wasn't worried about childbirth, the baby has to come out one way or another! But I knew that when it came to it actually happening, I was going to worry a lot more. Which I did. We got to the ward and I was given a bed, there were two other ladies in getting induced and as it was the time for the handover, there was quite a wait in us getting seen to. I remember sitting on the bed talking to Stuart and hearing someone who was getting her first pessary put in moaning in pain, not the best thing to hear when that is exactly what is going to be done to you! When it came to my turn to get things started, I was so nervous that this stage was going to hurt based on the reaction of the other woman. However, while pretty uncomfortable, it wasn't sore. 

Putting the pessary in should have just taken the one attempt but it took two. The first time I had bled a fair bit and they wanted to get a check by the doctor that it was okay to proceed with it as the bleeding was more than expected. It was fine so the doctor put it in himself (the difference between a female and male doing this was massive, the male doctor doing it was definitely a lot more physically uncomfortable and borderline sore! He wasn't being gentle about the whole thing!). I was dilated 1cm already so if my waters needed to be broken, it would be fine to go ahead.
Not long after the process was started, it was late and Stuart was told it was time to go home. This was my second time in my pregnancy being in hospital away from Stuart. I really hate sleeping without him and being by myself, especially when I'm in a place that isn't comfortable for me. Probably a combination of everything, him going home left me in tears and I really didn't want to be left by myself. I didn't sleep well this night. In fact I barely got 2 hours of sleep. I generally don't get much beauty sleep done in hospital but it was made worse by getting woken up early for getting a check up and the second pessary put in. 

The second time for some reason was a lot more uncomfortable. I was told by the doctor it was supposed to lessen as each one was done but this wasn't the case for me. It still wasn't sore but I didn't enjoy it! I was exhausted and just didn't know what the day was going to bring. A lot of me was hoping that I would get my baby today and at the same time I was scared as the process of getting her here was underway. The second pessary didn't take long to kick in, I started contracting regularly every minute and a half and it was agonizing. I was crying in pain and they just kept coming. 

Anytime I went to pee, I would be contracting, I couldn't stand back up and it was just so horrifically sore! I lay on the bed crying while Stuart tried to settle me, kept telling me to squeeze his hand anytime I had a contraction and this was when he kept track of how regular they were. I tried sitting on the birthing ball which eased a few of the contractions, delaying one or two to every 3 minutes instead. After spending hours and hours in pain, Stuart buzzed for a nurse to come and see me. 

Due to how regular my contractions were, they took me in for an examination to see how dilated I was, I dilated a whole centimeter more. I was just 2cm! It seemed like this was going to be a long, long process. They did say they would like to take me up to the labour suite but because I was so drained and exhausted, they said it wouldn't be good for me physically or mentally to go up. So they offered me diamorphine to ease the pain of contractions so I could get some sleep before getting taken up. So, a wee injection in my butt and 10 minutes later and I was, to put it quite blunty, feeling high as fuck. I then proceeded to let Stuart know how amazing and perfect he was and that he was just the best person ever. I was being super duper sickeningly lovey dovey but he wasn't complaining about it! Guess that was a little bit of truth serum on the go there! 

I tried to nap, I really did, but people in the room were talking loudly and another woman in the room was screaming in pain with her contractions (some of the things women say during this is entertaining and we did get a couple of laughs!). So I was lucky to get half an hour of sleep. The woman having the contractions was then taken to the labour suite (she had her baby quite promptly after this as she saw Stuart later on and asked if I had had mine and told him she'd had hers). So I was drained, I was exhausted and I was feeling disheartened seeing other people go up and be able to have their baby. I kept crying saying "I want our baby here", I was just getting distressed about everything. Nothing was making me feel better about it. Little did I know I still had a while to go. 

So, another night of Stuart keeping me company and getting a visit from my mum, Stuart's mum and her partner, it just felt like so much waiting and nothing happening. I kept getting told I would most likely get taken up to the labour suite at about 11pm, so I waited and waited and waited. No one came. I eventually went for a walk and asked one of the doctors if anything was going to happen tonight and I was told no. I was re-examined and because my contractions had stopped, they decided to go ahead and give me the last pessary. This was also due to me still being 2cm dilated and it would be a shorter process in the labour suite if I dilated a bit more. This last one was quite painful but it actually didn't make me have any sort of contractions. Again, it came to Stuart going home, me getting upset and me attempting to get some sleep.

Very little I got once again. I was woken up at 5.30 and was told I needed to have an early breakfast as I would be taken up to the labour suite. Great! Finally it's going to happen and finally I am going to get my baby girl here. Oh how my hopes were brought up to be shot down once again. I phoned Stuart and told him to come up to the hospital and when he got there he found me sitting with all of my bags sitting waiting. I did what I was told and got prepared to go. We waited. Waited. Waited. After a few hours one of the midwives said she had bad news. I wouldn't be taken up just yet and it was a case of having to wait until whenever a space pops up. This constant promise being made that I would go and being shot down broke me so much. I hated thinking I would be getting closer to my baby being here. I mentally prepared myself everytime as I was so nervous about the process and the unknown. I had to do this every single time and it was draining. I had had enough and I broke down once again to Stuart. This whole day was wasted, just sat waiting, we went for a little walk on the hospital grounds just to get me outside for a little while since I had been stuck in for days. There's only so much you can do sitting down on a hospital bed. 

There was a couple across from us that was making a big fuss that they had been in for hours and hours and not had anything done yet to which Stuart said pretty loudly "Some of us having been in here for three fucking days" and the whole room went silent. The couple across from us ended up getting taken up to the labour suite. Yet again, more people before me, more waiting for me. I wanted things to happen. I wanted to stop waiting. I wanted the promises to stop. I was hoping the next day it would finally be the day. Luckily for me, it was. 

Woken up at 5.30am again, I was told I was definitely going, that no one else was getting in front of me and I would be able to go and have my baby. I was so excited and phoned Stuart immediately, he headed out straight away but before he even got to the hospital they were taking me up to the labour suite, luckily as I was taken out of the door, Stuart appeared and came up with me. I got changed into a gown and was sat down and told the details of what was going to be happening for the induction of my labour. This was it and I was terrified! They began by putting a canulla in my left hand, this was so they could put the hormones into my blood stream to get labour kicked off. They also broke my waters which was an incredibly weird sensation, it does feel like you're peeing yourself! The little hook actually ended up leaving a small mark on Rinoa's head after she was born, which can happen! I was attached to the monitor to see how the wee one was doing. She was kicking away as per usual, after a little while the contractions started but weren't happening quick enough. So they upped the hormones until I was having one every 10 minutes. I kept for hours without taking any pain relief, but anyone that has had their labour induced will know how painful it is. According to a lot of people, the pain is a lot more intense as your body is being forced into doing something it isn't wanting to do naturally. 

Eventually, after me being as stubborn as I am, I gave in and started taking the gas and air. It took 5 inhales and exhales to get the gas working and my god when it did it was the best thing ever! Everytime I stopped, I started giggling like mad and I mean a proper Peter Griffin style laugh, no joke! For an hour or so my mum came to visit me and quite frankly, the stuff makes you feel high so I have no idea what I was talking about and I was sending my friends messages that make no sense to look back on. I was on the gas and air for a few hours before it wasn't having any effect on me. So it was time for diamorphine. Again, this just increased how dazed out I was feeling but it took the pain away. Because I was attached to the machine and because I had the pain relief, any time I needed to pee I had to use a catheter which really, isn't glamorous and is a strange sensation. 

Eventually though, that didn't have as much effect and I had said to them if necessary I would take the epidural. Their advice was to get it in now rather than when it's too late and it won't have the same effect. I agreed and the anesthetist was fantastic, kept me calm and said if it helped me to just take the gas and air while I was getting it in. I was panicing as I'm not too used to getting injections in my spine so I did have a little cry when I got it done as it was quite painful. Once it was in, it was fine though! I had a little button to press that I could only press every 20 minutes so I didn't take too much of it in, 
It came to about 10.30pm and they came to do a check up to see how I was getting on with my labour. At my last check 5 hours prior, I had dilated up to 5cm, but at this check as well I was still sitting at 5cm. My baby girl was sitting funny and her heart rate was going fast one minute then slower the next so they said it would be advised if I went ahead and got an emergency c-section. This terrified me. I started crying out of pure fear of going through the operation. I have had operations when I was younger but I was always put to sleep, but I knew I would be awake during this. I was paranoid that I would be able to feel them cutting into me and the lot. It took me about 20 minutes to come round to it and I said to them I would go for it. However, I did end up having to wait an hour to get taken as there was a more urgent emergency c-section happening first.

I knew myself it was what would be best for myself and for my baby. I knew I didn't have the energy to push her out if I was to go into labour naturally. I had already been in labour for 15 long and painful hours, I knew this was the inevitable for my situation. But it was finally time to get taken down to theatre to get my c-section underway. Stuart had gotten changed into scrubs (which, admittedly he looked really great  in despite having to wear crocs...) and they injected more anesthetic into my epidrual. They test to see if you can feel this ice cold spray being sprayed on you and I could a tiny bit so asked for some more relief, I was so paranoid I wanted as much as they would give me. I was behind a screen and Stuart was sat next to me holding my hand. Because I had so much drugs pumped through me all day, I was shaking constantly, that combined with my nerves. 

As I lay there one of the doctors said to me "You may not know this but they have already made the incision" to which I responded "DON'T TELL ME THAT" because that's all I could think about. After about 10 minutes they started pushing on the top of my bump which was a horrible feeling, I felt a "crack" and soon after my little girl was born. She started crying instantly and that was Stuart and I in tears. She was finally here with us. They did come up to us and showed us her before they cleaned her all "your girl is definitely a girl!". They cleaned her up and let her lie next to me for a couple of minutes, I went to stroke her face and she instantly took my finger which was one of the most incredible moments of my life. I just kept crying and crying with joy. They gave her to Stuart to hold while they finished off the operation. This seemed to take forever (well, it took about 45 minutes) and I just wanted to hold her again. She kept turning towards me while Stuart was holding her and we just looked at her in amazement with how gorgeous she was. She was here, we did it. 
This was an incredibly long post, if you read all of it, then props to you! I just really wanted to share with you my experience of giving birth and to keep a note of it for myself. It may not have been the birth I expected and for a while I did admittedly hate that I had a birth that didn't go to plan but I have come to terms with it and seeing my baby girl reminds me that it was all worth it. 

If you would like to share your birth story or have a post on it, feel free to share it with me, I love hearing other people's stories. 

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Thursday, 18 August 2016

Review - Klairs Freshly Juiced Vitamin Drop

I'm on a bit of a roll with my beauty posts lately which is quite unheard of from me. Today we have a skincare product in the form of Klairs Freshly Juiced Vitamin Drop serum which was generously gifted to me by Wishtrend. I was first introduced to skin serums back in 2011 when I had received a few samples with some of the other beauty products I had bought. I however only started added it into my skincare routine last year to see how much of a difference they actually made. Adding that extra step made such a difference to my skin so now I'm trying to find which ones work best for different weather conditions so I can perfect my skincare routine.

This product claims to rejuvenate and energize your skin, while protecting your skin from UV damage and improving your tone and texture. One of the great things about this product is that it is suitable for all skin types and even sensitive skin is included in that. I have a few skin problems, particularly with the texture of my skin and the tone, so I was hoping this would benefit my skin a lot when I received it.

It honestly took a while for me to begin using this after I got sent this product as I was so busy with the wee one being born I kept forgetting to actually follow my skincare routine. So once I actually started following my routine every morning and night, I decided to add this in. I initially intended on having it replace my previous It's Skin serum but I decided instead to have it simply replace the product in the morning. Meaning my skin gets the benefits of two different serums throughout the day. 

Following cleansing and toning you are instructed to apply this serum. Now depending on your skin type, how you apply it differs. Normal, oily, combo and dry skin you are told to apply half a dropped of the serum to your face and massage it in to let the heat of your hands make the serum work into the skin better. For Sensitive skin, just apply 3-4 drops instead. Extra Sensitive skin it is advised to add a couple of drops along with your lotion/emulsion/moisturiser. It comes with the standard dropper for serums which you just squeeze the top while it's in the bottle and it fills up. 

Despite having combination skin, I only use 3-4 drops as I find this is a sufficient amount for myself. I massage this into my face and neck and would usually follow this up with a little tap massage as well. This is just a habit I got into with applying serums and I will continue to do so!

The texture of this serum is ever so slightly oily but isn't overly heavy. Despite this though, it absorbs into the skin fairly quickly ready for the rest of your routine to follow up. It has a gorgeous citrus scent to it which doesn't seem overpowering in the slightest. I find after applying this serum my skin feels a lot smoother and allows for my moisturiser to apply a lot better. From continuous use I have found my skin to have improved in it's tone, it's generally a lot brighter looking and is less red. It has generally just improved the appearance and feel of my skin and I'm very satisfied with this product. 

Klairs was a brand I had heard about and wanted to try and I'm extremely thankful to Wishtrend for giving me the opportunity to be able to try a new brand out. I'm definitely going to give their other products a go sometime in the near future as I can see using the whole range will benefit my skin massively. 

I highly recommend this product to you guys as it has genuinely made a difference to my skin just adding it in once a day, perhaps using it both in the morning and night would show even better results. I myself would repurchase this and I think after I have used both of my serums up I am going to buy it straight away. 

Now, for you to buy it? You can purchase it here from Wishtrend.

Have you tried any of Klairs' products or even this one yourself? Do you have any serums you would recommend to me? 

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Monday, 15 August 2016

Mask Monday #3 - Luke Mugwort Nose Cleansing Strip

It's Monday again, so it's time for me to share with you a mask of some kind that I have been using this past week. This week we have another one gifted to me by Skin18, but instead of being a sheet mask, we have a nose strip from Luke, a smaller beauty company. I have used a charcoal nose strip from Luke a few years ago and didn't have a great experience with it, so I'm hoping this time I have a bit more success with this brand. Nose strips aren't the easiest to come across in terms of ones that actually work, I've only ever found one that effectively removed the blackheads and it is one I am currently standing by. However, I'm happy to give others a try!

I tried to do a bit of research into mugwort as an ingredient, it is a common name for plants with the genus Artemisia. More specically, it seems the specific plant that is used as a skincare ingredient is the Artemisia princeps which is also known as Japanese mugwort and comes from the sunflower family. In Korean it is called Ssuk (쑥) and as with China and Japan, it is commonly used in traditional and modern medicines. It also features in some recipes such as Ssuk Soup (쑥국). Asides from being beneficial to the body through consuming it, it has also been found that it is a great ingredient in skincare, particularly when it comes to fighting acne. Now this isn't particularly helpful for me in terms of this being a nose pack as I don't get acne on my nose, however, I can definitely see it being a beneficial ingredient to have in skincare.

The nose strip itself is slightly green in colour as you may expect and it has a herbal scent to it. Upon applying it, I found this is one of the nose strips that I feel fits well on my nose. A lot of them there can sometimes be overhang on the end of my nose, however, it seemed to fit perfectly. To apply the strip you simply wet your nose and apply it evenly to your nose. I left the strip on for 20 minutes (recommendation is 10-20) and when I took it off I was slightly disappointed. While it took some of the blackheads out of the side of my nose, it didn't take any out of the centre (aka. the main part of my nose!). So I did get some results but not the best I've had. 

This one was a lot better than their charcoal one which you keep on for 30 minutes and when I took it off I literally had 0 blackheads come out! I was not impressed. However, it doesn't match up to the standards of the A'pieu one which will remain my go to. However, don't let my experience with this put you off! I still recommend giving it a go (as I did get some results from using it) if you're on the hunt for a nose strip that works for you!

Would I repurchase? Personally, no as I have found the best working one for me.

Where to buy? You can purchase this from for 50p. 

Although I didn't have the best experience with this product, being gifted it has left me researching this new found ingredient for myself and as I suffer from acne I am going to try some sheet masks and other skincare than contain Mugwort! Have you guys used anything with mugwort in it? What nose strips do you yourself recommend? 

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Thursday, 11 August 2016

Welcome to GeekNess Gaming!

This is just a quick post to let you guys know about a new YouTube channel that's just started up! GeekNess Gaming is the creation of my fiance Stuart and his friend Dazz. Two geeks from Inverness (hence: GeekNess) who have a major love of playing games. The channel is going to feature a selection of single player games and multiplayer/co-op games. 

Photo: stuartyalec@instagram

From time to time I am going to be featuring in these videos either in multiplayer games or even a little bit of solo playing! We may also have some of our other friends in our videos as well. Last Saturday, Dazz and our friend Robert came round and we filmed a video of the newly released game Overcooked. Give that a little watch below!

So if you could subscribe and follow them on Twitter that would be highly appreciated! More videos will be coming up in the next few weeks to come!

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K-Beauty Files I - Nana of Ddalgi Nana Beauty

Hey everyone! Today I am sharing with you guys the first in this exciting new series on the blog! K-Beauty Files is an interview series in which I ask beauty bloggers with a focus of Korean beauty on their blog about their favourite brands and products. Since a lot of my readers are starting to gain an interest in Korean brands through seeing the products I share, I thought it would be a great idea to support and share other bloggers in the same beauty niche as myself. Not only does it let my readers discover more products but also lets them find more bloggers that might share completely different Korean products than I do that may suit my readers more. 

First of all we have Nana from Ddalgi Nana Beauty (Ddalgi/딸기 is Korean for Strawberry!), a blog I only discovered very recently but I loved her style of photos and her shared love of Etude House! So I thought she would be perfect for this series. So do check her out and read her answers to my questions! There are a few links in this post to products she has written about so be sure to read those posts too!
Monday, 8 August 2016

Mask Monday #2 - Mirium Fresh Fruit Acai Berry Real Nature Mask Pack

Hey guys! It's Monday so it's time for another Mask Monday! Albeit, late again. I'm gradually working my way through my sheet masks I was gifted from Skin18 and I will be trying to get these ones done for you as soon as I can. I also have a few others I want to share with you but that will all come in time! 

Acai Berry is something that came about majorly into the health business a few years ago when people learnt the antioxidant benefits of the berry, it took a while after for the ingredients to appear in more major beauty brands. My local smoothie bar does a smoothie with Acai sorbet in it and it is amazing! This mask claims to hydrate your skin and help provide the skin with luster and softness. 

One thing I will say when I first took the mask out of the pack is that it is very thick compared to other ones I have tried in the past and I quite honestly do prefer a thinner one as I feel it's less likely to slide off my face while I am upright. Luckily for me I was relaxing in the bath when I used this one so it managed to stay on my face fine. Usually sheet masks have a lot of essence in the pack which usually leaves some leftover to use or a more negative point is that it can leave the mask sliding about and dripping down your neck. However, there was a perfect amount of essence in this sheet mask that left on a tiny amount in the packet which I applied before bed after my moisturizer.

The fit of this mask wasn't perfect for me but wasn't the worst. The eye, nose and mouth slits were in the correct positions to fit my face however, there was a lot of sheet mask left along my jawline so I had to fold quite a lot of it in and because of that I could kind of feel parts of it along my jaw fall away since they were overlapping each other. The scent is that of acai berries which can be expected, it's not a super sweet scent but it's quite a nice one nonetheless. 

As instructed, I washed my face, applied toner and popped the mask on for 15-20 minutes (I went the full 20) and I just lay back in the bath and relaxed with my eyes closed. Upon removal, I found the essence remained on my face for quite a while and was fairly sticky. So I had to wait a while before I finished my skin care routine to allow for it to absorb into my skin fully. When it had there was a noticeable difference to the softness of my skin, it felt like it had really been moisturised. I didn't notice much change in my complexion but since this isn't a brightening or whitening mask I didn't expect that too much. I found my skin was moisutrised as well when I woke up in the morning so the effects lasted. 

Would I repurchase? I would but I feel like I would try the different variations of the mask, particularly the pomegranate one and possibly the lemon one as that is a kind of mask I have yet to try! Overall I think my experience with this sheet mask was a good one and I would recommend to you guys!

Where to buy? You can purchase this from for 73p

Have you tried any of Mirium's masks before?

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Thursday, 4 August 2016

Review - A'pieu Grain Soap ♡ 리뷰 - 어퓨 곡물비누

I have a big massive box of products I need to review for you guys and I'm slowly trying to work my way through them. There's a combination of skincare and make up products, so I want to start off with a nice quick little review for you! 

A'pieu has super quickly become one of my favourite beauty brands from Korea, Etude House will always be my number one but A'pieu is definitely sitting at a close number two! They have given me the best ever nose strip so I have been quite keen to try more of their skincare stuff. I picked this Grain Soap out of everything to give a go because it was ridiculously cheap on eBay, so I thought, why not? 

So what is the products intention? The A'pieu Grain Soap claims to help with blackheads, removal of dead skin cells and removes sebum. Features in a skincare product that is quite beneficial to my own skin problems (acne prone, large pores and a face that needs exfoliated regularly). The main ingredient is red bean powder which is supposed to help very gently buff away the dead cells and clear your blackheads out. The primary ingredients are Red bean powder, Olive oil, Aloe vera, Glycerin, Hyaluronic acid, things that are very beneficial to your skin! So there's a lot in one to help out with your skin. 

So how do you use it? Initially, I thought it was like the Wonder Pore soap from Etude House that you actually rub it directly on your face so I used it this way at first, however, I learnt after that that wasn't right! It's much simpler, you just take the bar, run it in the tap and lather it up in your hands, following this up with gently massaging your face. 

Now I actually currently have 3 face washes that I'm currently using, ones I will speak about in a skincare routine post. However, I have decided to use this particular one prior to washing my face at nice, so I use it as a precleanse for my skin! I find using this helps clean the make up out of my pores and lets the benefits of my skincare routine work better. Now it's not an abrasive exfoliation soap, you can't really feel it but after you pat your skin dry you can feel the difference in your skin. It feels a lot smoother and looks a lot brighter. I've really found adding this to my skincare routine has really made a difference to my skin overall (apart from a few hormonal spots, yay post pregnancy!). 

Being quite a large block of soap, this would probably last you a long time, however, I would recommend, as you would do a bar of hand soap, to invest in some sort of soap dish so it doesn't sit on the side of the sink and the soap gets that horrible thick white layer on the bottom, you could even gently give it a little pat dry to prevent that even further. 

It doesn't have the most pleasant scent to it. It's a very earthy kind of natural scent, but that just makes me feel like I'm not putting strong chemicals on my face which is always a benefit! 

For being so cheap, you're not really breaking the bank giving it a go, so I would recommend it! I'm hoping to start investing in more A'pieu skincare products as I'm fairly convinced they are some of the best affordable ones coming from Korea. You can buy this from eBay for £1.51! Do you have any A'pieu skincare products you would recommend? Are you wanting to give this soap a try?

Also, I am working on my blog photography to try and improve it, hope you guys are happy with it!

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Thursday, 28 July 2016

Etude House x Wedding Peach Haul ♡ 에뛰드 하우스 x 웨딩피치 하울

It's been a while since I have done any sort of haul post on my blog and I thought it was about time I got one done! Usually when payday comes around I buy myself some make up or skincare stuff and while I had done a massive Korean beauty spree, I didn't post it (yet, there will be reviews coming of the products in the near future!), I decided to do a smaller haul post on my most recent purchase. Etude House recently did a collaboration with Wedding Peach to create a range called Angel Sparkle and I can't help myself when limited edition make up is released. If you don't know, Wedding Peach is a Shōjo (aimed at girls) anime/manga series from the mid 90's. It's a magical girl type series (think the likes of Sailor Moon) and while I have only watched a few episodes in the past, the release of this range is making me want to watch it all the way through!

Annoyingly the range isn't available on the global Etude House website (I was hoping for a limited edition box set of some sort) and there isn't much about it from people outwith Korea so I really have to try my best to translate the names of the colours and such for you guys and they will most likely be wrong, so apologies in advance for that. 

I wanted to buy one thing from each item in one colour but there are two things I didn't buy. First thing was the hair tints, mainly because these weren't being sold to the UK as they are an aerosol. There was a range of colours that looked like they would work on darker hair so it would have been fun to use and change my hair up a bit! The second was a false nail set. I did originally plan to buy one but I realised I don't wear false nails so it would be a waste of money for me to get them. Now onto what I did buy!

Color In Liquid Lips Juicy OR209 - Eternal Power of Love ♡ 컬러 인 리퀴드 립스 쥬이시 OR209 - 영원한 사랑의 힘

This is actually my third liquid lipstick from Etude House (I have a red and pink one) and this one is a peachy coral colour. It is also the second of the Juicy range of their liquid lipsticks that I own. I have yet to try it on properly yet but I get the feeling the colour is going to be quite similar to the OR209 in the Dear My Blooming Lips range that they have (that I own and love!). Though Yuri/Lily is probably my favourite character I didn't chose these items based on that, I chose them simply on the colours! I hope I don't like this too much because my favourite Etude House lipstick so far was limited edition as well and now costs a fortune to purchase it as there's only a few left.

Play 101 Pencil #80 PK014 ♡ 플레이101 펜슬 80호 PK014

I love Etude House's Play 101 Pencils and I wish I could afford to buy more of them! I love using the lighter glitter colours to line along my bottom lash line so I thought this pinky white glitter one would be a nice addition to the collection. There was a dark pink brown pencil I REALLY wanted instead but it wasn't being sold by any of the sellers so I had to settle for something else. I feel like this is going to get a lot of use out of it.

Look At My Eyes PK009 - Instinctive Center Peach ♡ 룩 앳 마이 아이즈 PK009 -센터 본능 피치

I've recently become obsessed with wearing eyeshadow almost daily (well....the days I actually wear make up anyway!) and quite frankly glitter is the way for me. This was a colour I don't really have in my collection so I thought I would add it in. It's a purpley pink glitter eyeshadow, it's supposed to resemble Momoko/Peach's hair colour. Like most of Etude's glitter eyeshadows I'm not expecting a lot of pigmentation so I would use this as a main colour for a look with either a darker colour to make it smokey or just on it's own!

Shaking Crystal Eyes PK001 - Angel of Magic ♡ 쉐이킹 크리스탈 아이즈 PK001 - 천사의 요술봉

Another unintentional Lily purchase, Shaking Crystal Eyes is a new product from Etude House exclusive to this range. The tube contains a clear liquid and glitter and as you may have guessed, you shake it to get it to mix together to apply onto your eyes. I chose the pink colour even though the pink is super subtle, quite like the Play 101 pencil I chose. I'm intrigued to see how this applies and how it looks on! Plus the peachy coral packaging is a winner for me!

Wedding Peach Play Nail #7 - Defeat Evil ♡ 웨딩피치 플레이 네일 7호 - 악을 물리쳐라 

Now this wouldn't normally be a nail colour I would choose and that's the exact reason why I chose it. The only green nail colours I have are mint colours so I thought this bolder, teal kind of colour would be a good choice! This colour is supposed to Hinagiku/Daisy's hair. 

So that's everything! I'm excited to give everything a try and creating looks using these products. Now I know I'm bad for doing hauls and not following up with the reviews but I promise I am going to change my ways! Which product from the range would you like to see reviewed the most? Let me know in the comments below and if you would like to see a look on the blog using the products I've purchased. 

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Wednesday, 27 July 2016

Afternoon Tea, Overwatch + Shitfaced - A Long Weekend with Sherbet Aurora

This post is long overdue for sure. A few weekends ago I got a little visit from my best bae blogger friend Gail of Sherbet Aurora. She had said for ages that she wanted to come up and see me so we decided on her staying for 3 nights to hang out and meet my little baby girl Rinoa. For two of the days she was here we were also accompanied by Stuart's best friend Doug so it was a full house for the weekend. But you wanna know something? Both of us were terrible bloggers and took next to no photos! Shocking right?

Gail headed up on the Saturday (nice early start for her) and the weather was just wet and dreary, thankfully we didn't actually have anything planned for the day or it could have easily been ruined by the weather. We drove back to my flat and just decided to chill out. Stuart and Doug were sitting playing Overwatch, which as per, involved a lot of shouting and swearing at the screen. Gail and I sat and discussed blogging things and some of the other bloggers (so yes, if you follow both of us you may have been part of the conversation!). Gail had brought up some tablet her mum made for us and my god it was amazing. White chocolate, chocolate orange, After Eight, Strawberry and Vanilla flavour and my favourite was definitely the white chocolate with the After Eight coming in at a very close second. It was amazing, best tablet I've had for sure. I made a quite frankly, super tasty spag bol for everyone's dinner which seemed to go down a treat with them all!

We intended on drinking that night and obviously due to that and the fact I wouldn't be able to get up to do the night feeds, I had arranged for my mum to babysit Rinoa for the night which was going to be the first night away from me. We drove to drop her off then headed to the shop to get some drink and some munch. Stuart's friend suggested a card drinking game called shitfaced and to cut a long story short, I fit the title of the game within a couple of hours. Poor Gaily had a sore head and wasn't feeling too good so ended up not drinking and having to deal with me being drunk for the first time since before I found out I was pregnant. We skyped with Saph for a little while before she went off. I was just drunk and laughing though (Gail took videos of me doing so).

Sunday, I decided to do the good thing that I like to do when I have guests (even sometimes when I don't) and made a massive fry up for all of us. Took me a good while and Gail kept me company while I made it but it was worth it! Everyone enjoyed it (I think the consensus is I'm alright at cooking). Since I had woken up at 1pm, it was about 3pm before we actually got it! We had a good few hours to wait before Rinoa was home as my mum was taking her through to Elgin to see her boyfriend's mum for a few hours. So this was more Overwatch being played and I got a few games in as well, though I notice I play worse when I'm being watched because I feel under pressure! Then was another load of cooking for me in the form of a Sunday roast which was damn good if I don't say so myself. Doug went home after we had it as he had to drive back to Aberdeen and get up early for work the next day, it was just another night of us all chilling out. 

Monday we intended on going for our afternoon tea but we didn't, just sat in and didn't do all that much if we're going to be honest here. Stuart was at work all day so it was just me, Gail and Rinoa. We decided to be good bloggers this day and get some blogging done. Gail worked on her post that she will eventually be posting about her weekend here and I got a post done, we also just spent a good few hours looking at other people's blogs and catching up on some posts. So it was pretty much a blogging day for the two of us. The topic of people believing that the earth is flat came up so Gail spent a lot of time looking at flat earth memes. I hadn't thought ahead for dinner that night and with the discussion of pizza, plus the fact it was 50% off at Domino's all week, that was dinner sorted. Gail wanted to watch Professor Brian Cox so we popped him on! 

Tuesday came which was the last day of Gail being here and it was the day we were finally going to go for Afternoon Tea. I originally said to go to my old work for it but I thought we could go somewhere else as it is somewhere that I haven't been for it and I had heard great things about it. So we went to the Simpson's Garden Center for it! It featured a lovely uphill walk with a pram on grass which was not fun to do at all. Upon arriving we learnt that it probably would have been a better idea to book it as it was a bit more of a fuss for them to set it up for us and as the sandwiches were already prepared before, I had to put up with butter on the sandwiches (which I hate, girl doesn't like butter). Photo above and below this paragraph are from Gail's instagram. 

The Afternoon Tea had a whole area of it's own that was sectioned off from the rest of the restaurant but the only problem I had with it was when there are people in their seats, it's difficult to get the pram through it. I managed it though and we took a table up in the corner. 

Being a garden center, they seemed to stick with the theme for their Afternoon Tea and they give it to you on a cute little picnic bench! You get two scones, a selection of cream cakes and 6 quarters of sandwiches of varying kinds. We got ham and tomato, bacon, brie and cranberry and egg mayo. The egg mayo wasn't touched by either of us as we don't like it and I didn't enjoy them much since I had to eat the butter and it reminded me yet again that I really can't eat food with it on. 

The cakes were gorgeous and you got unlimited refills of the tea which isn't something I've seen happen when I go elsewhere for afternoon tea. I loved the cream that came for the scones and was on the cake, would definitely go back just for the cream because my god it was lovely. All the cakes are homemade in the store in the morning so they're fresh every day and you can taste it! The chocolate cake was amazing, probably the most moist chocolate cake I've had! 

We pottered around the garden center and just had to stop and take some photos at the Bomb Cosmetics area, so much colour! I've picked out a few things I want to get from them as they smell amaaaazing. 

After we finished we had to head back to mine so Gail could get her things and get her bus back home. We were cutting it close as the traffic was bad for Stuart getting back to ours after work. We said our wee goodbyes at the bus station and Gail headed home. It was a really great and chilled weekend, I would have liked to have tried and planned to go out and do more things but money was a bit of a constraint as was the weather so I wasn't complaining about a weekend in. It was great to meet Gail and it was good that it wasn't awkward at all when we met and we could just speak comfortably! Will definitely go down and see her sometime myself as well! 

We're also planning for Gail and Saph to come up at somepoint which would be great! Hopefully next time we are better bloggers and actually take more photos!
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Monday, 11 July 2016

Mask Monday | LomiLomi 7 Scheduler Mask - Cucumber | Bouncing Mask

Hi everyone, this post is a little (well, very) delayed as I have been preoccupied with the little one which has made blogging a challenge to do! She doesn't want mama to blog it seems! I wanted to start this last week but by the time I could sit down and type it out it was Tuesday...But here I am with a new mini series on the blog, Mask Monday! I was inspired by Lona to go ahead and do this and it will motivate me to use masks more regularly! It will be a wide variety of sheet masks, clay/other masks and hair masks!

Skin18 kindly sent me a selection of masks to try out and give my honest review on and I'm going to share one a week with you for the next 5 weeks. Today's one is from LomiLomi and their 7 Skin Scheduler Mask in Cucumber. It comes from a box set of sheet masks to be used for 7 days is quite a popular concept going about. It means every day your skin gets a chance to be pampered and reap the benefits of sheet masks. This cucumber mask is intended for Thursday (or the 4th day you follow this routine) and is supposed to help firm your skin. 

Cucumber is a great ingredient for your skin as it nourishes and moisturizes the skin. Being such a refreshing ingredient, a cucumber mask would be ideal for a hot summers day to let your face get a lovely cool down! For an extra boost, it could be a good idea to pop the sheet mask in the fridge for a little while to allow for your pores to contract down! 

I was keen to try this mask first as my skin is feeling a little dry, being a new mama means I don't get the best sleep in the world so my skin has suffered a little because of it. I was hoping this would just give my skin a little boost and look better!

Scent: As expected, this mask has a lovely scent of cucumber, it's quite strong but that's not an issue with me. It makes it pleasant to have on my face and lasts after you've removed the mask as well.

Size/Fit: This is by far the best fitting mask I have used! Even better than the Innisfree masks that were the first I came across that had fit me well. There are little flaps for your eyes as well on this mask but I folded them underneath the mask (you could always cut them off or put them over your eye lids with your eyes closed and lie down!).

Material: The mask is your standard thickness of sheet and there is a lot of essence in the mask, it was practically dripping when it came out! This gave me a lot extra to use before bed and in the morning after my skin routine.

Result: I put the sheet mask on for 30 minutes while I was in a hot bath, which allowed for my pores to open and the essence to seep into my pores more. The mask didn't slide down and stayed in place. Upon removal, there was lots of the essence on my face which I massaged in and left it to dry. This actually took a few hours which might be an issue for some people but for me it let me know that my skin was continuing to be moisturised. So it's definitely one I recommend to use at night or you'll have a wet looking face! If you have dry skin you may find the time this mask takes to absorb into your skin to be very beneficial. 

The benefit of being in the bath when I used this was after I took the mask off I used the actual sheet and swept it across my shoulders, arms and chest to let my body get a little bit of use out of it! I found my skin looked plump and dewy. It felt soft and definitely moisturised! I had a couple of small spots on my face and it seemed to take some of the burn off of them. Just a little sweep over my chest made my skin feel so much softer. 

Would I repurchase? Oh for sure! I might invest in the entire box set when I get the chance though so I can see how the other masks fare in comparison and also to see how my skin looks by the end of the week! 

Where to buy? You can purchase this mask at for £2.64

Have you tried any of the LomiLomi masks before? What sheet masks have you been giving a go this week?

This post features samples gifted to me and contains an affiliate link

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Saturday, 25 June 2016

Caesarean Guilt

Only yesterday did I become brave enough to lift my mummy pooch up and look in the mirror at what was underneath. Expecting a big horrible scar that was a mess and unpleasant to look at. I was terrified to look. I didn't want to see it there on my body, leaving my body scarred for the rest of my life. To my own relief, it wasn't as bad as I expected it to be. It was shorter in length and was simply just a red line below my stomach. 

To some, I may seem ungrateful, I'm made to feel that way anyway. Whenever I bring up the fact I had a c-section, I'm told "at least your baby is here safe" and "at least you can have children". While this is true and I do count myself very lucky that I have been able to grow and have a child. I count myself incredibly lucky as I have people around me that are unable to. These words make me feel even more guilty about what I went through to get my little girl here. Moreso, I am made to feel guilty about the guilt I feel towards it. 

I spent the entirety of my pregnancy with my labour in my mind, I wanted a water birth but if I couldn't, I was happy with a "bed birth". I pictured in my head the whole time of having things happen naturally. It was what I was hoping would happen and while I was ever so slightly anxious about the pain, I knew it had to happen and I was excited. I wanted to experience childbirth in this form, naturally. I wanted to know what it felt like to push and push and give birth to my child. I wanted Stuart to cut the cord, I wanted that picture moment when you've just given birth to your child and you almost immediately get to hold them in your arms. I wanted that moment and I feel like that was taken away from me. Although I didn't get that exact moment I wanted in my head, I got my own type of moment with my daughter after she was born, where they held her next to my face and let me touch her face, in that moment my daughter grabbed my index finger and I started crying all over again. That was our moment and it's one I will always cherish. 

After that, she was given to my partner to hold. It killed me. Not that I didn't want him to hold her, but I wanted to cuddle her and feel her in my arms. But I had to lie there and wait to be stitched back up. It felt like it took forever to pass and every time they said one layer was done, there was still another to go. I just wanted it to hurry up so I could hold my daughter. It was like time slowed down and was purposely making me wait longer. When I finally got to hold her, I cried yet again, I was so happy just to have her close and I didn't want to let her go. I just kept staring at her, stroking her face and talking to her. I was immediately besotted and felt so unbelievably happy. I was thankful I even got to experience this.

I find myself some days getting incredibly upset that I had to have a c-section. I start crying in the shower, I start crying while I lie in bed, I hold my tears back if I'm around people and it comes into my head. My feelings towards my C-section are a bit more deep rooted than others may first think. 

~Trigger Warning: Pregnancy loss, depression & suicidal thoughts~

2014 was the beginning of my longest and deepest bout of depression. One where suicidal thoughts entered my mind every single day and several times a week, I would allow myself to be in a position where I would follow try to follow through with those thoughts. Being in an abusive relationship and having no control over my life and what I could do, I was in an awful place and felt like my life was going nowhere and there was no point in trying. I found out I was pregnant during this time, something that gave me something to live for, something that gave me a purpose. It took these thoughts away for a while, even though I was still in this horrible relationship, I knew at the end of the day, I would have this child and more than likely, it would be the two of us alone. 

At 11 weeks, a week before my dating scan, I miscarried. It absolutely destroyed me and I spent so long mourning over it. It took away that hope I had for myself and all I did was blame myself and my body. Though I later learned that this happened for a good reason, to allow me to be in the position I am in today. 

But I feel as though this was my body letting me down. My body not letting me carry the baby or let it grow properly. At the beginning of this pregnancy, having an ectopic scare brought it all back and made me upset thinking things weren't happening how they were supposed to, that something was wrong with me. I was lucky and so so thankful that this was not the outcome of this pregnancy. I was relieved beyond belief. But, to have my induction of labour fail and having to have an emergency c-section echoed that feeling yet again. My body didn't let me give birth normally. My body didn't respond to the hormones they were pumping through me. My body just didn't want things to happen the way I wanted to. I feel guilty that I'm not able to do these things that my body was essentially made to do properly. 

This may be something you can relate to, this may be something I am alone in feeling, this may seem completely abnormal for me to feel. It may be something you can't understand at all. I may be seen as selfish by people for feeling how I do. All I hope is that in time I'm able to feel less guilty about this happening to me, even if it's just a small amount. Or that I can accept it a bit better as I am fully aware it happened for the safety of myself and my beautiful baby daughter. I apologise if this is poorly worded or just messy, I just felt like getting how I've been feeling for the past few weeks out in the open, moreso for myself than anything. 

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Tuesday, 21 June 2016

Swatches | Etude House Play Color Eyes - Ice Van ♡ 스와치 | 에뛰드 히우스 플레이 컬러 아이즈 - 아이스 밴

 Summer is officially here! While the weather here in Scotland may not do much to show for it, it's time to get in with some of the summer limited edition make up! Etude House's Play Color Eyes range usually features seasonal eye palettes that are released throughout the year, for the summer they have released the Ice Van palette. With a gorgeous mint green case, this was immediately on my wishlist, but it didn't stay on that list very long as I bought it as soon as I could!